A TRIBUTE TO MY MOTHER
Most kids said astronaut, fireman, singer, or football player. I said...mom. I remember the looks I would get on kids faces as I simply said I just wanted to be a mom. As I grew older, the thought ran through my mind...is that selfish? Clearly in order for this to happen I am going to need a husband who is willing to work hard in order for me to be able to stay and home and be "mom." I soon realized that it would be possible. Though I did work, and still do work part time, I get to be "mom" and nothing makes me happier in life. Don't get me wrong, some days I want to pull my hair out and return Parks to the crazy factory that he for sure must have come from. But then he will secretly pick the neighbors flowers, look up at me and say "mommy I godda suprised for tu" and my mommy heart melts into a puddle on the tile floor, and it is all worth it.
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I believe the true reasoning behind my yearning to be a mom was simply because of the role model my mom was for me. Everyone is biased, but my mom really is the most amazing lady I know, and I am not the only one that thinks that. :) I believe that all I am today is because of her.
My mom has been my biggest supporter in everything I have ever done. From helping me memorize every move to my cheerleading tryout, to helping me create a rap for my science project, all while making me a astronaut suit to wear while rapping it for my class. After graduating college I was sure I was not going to get a teaching position, she assured me that I would. Not only was I applying for everything under the sun, so was she! My mom was going to do whatever it took to find me a job that fall, and she did. When I told her I wanted to start a blog, she said "You are my go getter girl, and I know you can do whatever you put your mind to."
My mom devoted all her time to her children. Here is a small list of things I thought normal moms's do, however when I moved out of the house I quickly learned that was not the case!
- Every morning before school/seminary my mom would wake up before us, make our lunches for the day, make our breakfast, and then read us scriptures while we ate the breakfast she had made for us.
- Attended every basketball/football game I cheered at all through high school.
- Stayed up till wee hours in the morning studying for my dreaded biology tests.
- Let your high school friends come over all the time, all while setting out treats and making everyone feel right at home.
- Had a full course meal 5 nights a week.
My mom is my rock. I can count on one hand the amount of times I have seen my mom discouraged. She somehow manages to help everyone around her and never thinks of herself. She truly is the most selfless person I know. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't use some piece of advice she has given me, or I give her a call for more advice!
As I begin to raise my own children I am able to see a glimpse of what it was like for her. All those times she told me no, or I am only doing this because I love you, makes much more sense now. When I think about my boys, I only want the best for them, they are my pride and joy.
Motherhood is not the easiest thing I have ever done, but it is for sure the best thing I have ever done. Being able to watch them grow and learn each day is the best gift in the world.
I am forever in debt to her for all that she has done for me, and still does for me. I truly believe that a great part of who you are today, is greatly influenced by the way you were raised. Lucky for me, I had the best of the best. I love you mom, thanks for being my mentor, shoulder to cry on, the best "Noni," and best friend.
Love Kenzi